Thirty years ago, while learning energetic protection tools from a lovely group of Angels, it was suggested to me that I pull from my spine the sword of protection placed there within each of us by Archangel Michael. This sword can be used to cut us free from all inappropriate energetic bindings and attachments.
In my mind’s eye as I pulled this sword from my spine, I noticed it was covered in gorgeous green moss. As I savored the beauty of the moss, a compassionate Angel voice quietly suggested that it wasn’t exactly a great thing that my sword of protection had been unused for so long that it was covered in moss. And so the penny dropped, and I took up my sword again.
This December, many decades later, it was not moss but mold that concerned us in Angel meetings. Only this time I wasn’t the only human talking to the Angels but was in community with the lovely humans here at the farm and in the greater Green Hope Farm community.
We had received a spate of email from many of you suffering from mold problems. Those of us here in the office felt this mold issue was similar to various experiences we’d had of having our boundaries violated or playing energetic host to someone or something that did not deserve our energy.
Because this concern with mold felt both mysterious but familiar, we decided to do a group meditation on the topic of mold. We hoped to find out what mold was trying to show us and to get information from our spiritual guides about their perspective on mold. What followed was an incredible learning for all of us, bringing clarity about our light and how we care for it or fail to care for it.
And frankly, I would have shared what we learned a lot sooner if we had not been battling our own version of mold on the website with hackers constantly shutting down this blog. Thanks to webmaster/mold blaster Ben Sheehan, today the blog is back up with stronger boundaries than ever.
So to share what we learned….
As 2020 begins, we face a planetary epidemic of inappropriate use of other people’s energy by individuals and organizations calling themselves the rightful owners of these energies. In 2020 we see this power dynamic more clearly than ever. Yet all is not lost. Not only are there mighty forces with us to help these inappropriate contracts dissolve and die, but with greater clarity comes a new resolve within us to end our role in the dynamic.
Just as the collective is under pressure to change, we too are called upon to fearlessly dismantle any patterns in our personal lives that allow our light to be taken from us inappropriately. Moss and Mold guide us in this.
Why would we have a mold build up in our system? Why would we have let something that does not have our best interests at heart proliferate within us at our own expense? Why was it almost entirely women writing to us about mold problems?
Womankind has a history of needing to appease physically or socially more powerful people in order to survive. A recent close encounter with an Opposum reminded me that sometimes we’ve even had to play dead in order to survive. Since the rise of patriarchy, we’ve often had our energies taken from us by those who say, “Your energy is of no value but we want it anyways.”
And we have often devalued our energy in response to this dynamic, buying into the big con. Because no one would work so hard subjugating others if the energy they were taking was not intrinsically of great value.
This has been a big con- that our energy is valueless- and we need to throw out that lie right now.
Our light energy is the most precious commodity of them all.
It is time to respect our light more fully and give it the vessel of protection our sacred light deserves. It is time to take seriously our role as holy temples of energy.
Energy does not flood through some more than others by accident. Light energy is something we have earned through lifetimes of effort. As lightworkers, we have earned ever ounce of our light, yet even when someone didn’t beat our light out of us, we often bought into the big con that we owed our light to whomever wanted it in the name harmony or to be “a good person” or to trade it for something we’d been told we needed in order to be whole.
We were always whole.
So yes, we have a history of lifetimes of being killed for holding onto our light for our own heart driven purposes. We have had to manage our own safety in situations in which more powerful forces have demanded our light from us.
In this life as well, if we have remained steadfast in holding onto our light energy to use in divine order, we have often been mercilessly attacked by every unconscious force out there, because unconscious people can easily be used and manipulated to take light that is not theirs to take.
It has been my experience that the degree to which a lightworker has been attacked is often the degree to which this lightworker has held their light and used it in service to greater light. The more we have stood in our light, the more attacks we have dealt with. Often this has been a rough gig.
Sometimes it has been too much. Our walls have been breached one too many times, and we have let the mold spores in and laid down our sword of protection. Sometimes it is more insidious than this. Habits of not valuing ourselves creep in when we aren’t paying attention, and we let others set the rules of engagement so we are drained of our light.
But we can let these old dynamics go.
We can return to our true selves ready to fully embody ourselves as the sacred vessels of light inviolate that we are. As we own our role in what happened, we find our freedom to rise up again and go forward on a planet ready to have our back in a more direct way than ever before.
If we can look at the compromises we made not through the patriarchal lens of duality but the 2020 lens that it was all for learning, then we can unburden ourselves of regrets about the past and lay it all to rest once and for all.
We can support the holy temple of our bodies to be the chalice of sacred light energy. We can protect these vessels as they deserve to be protected, so the light can blossom within us and we can use all we have learned in our history as lightworkers to use our light in accordance with our heart’s divinity.
For those of us here at the farm, we find strength to keep going in this delicate unraveling, rebuilding and re-consecration of our energies by building a supportive community with each other and with all of you.
What a difference this community makes!
If mold is reflective of energy imbalances, then the healing began as we sat together to meditate and discuss our own individual processes and the collective’s through the lens of mold. We want you to know we have your backs as you seek the energy balance appropriate for your true self.
As do the Flower Essences!
Early on we decided we wanted to choose a Flower Essence to share that would support everyone to find a new energy balance.
In one of our group discussions, Jen suggested that Be Fearless would be an excellent choice. There were shivers down our spine and joy in our hearts as we chose Be Fearless and decided to send it as our 2020 New Year’s gift. We then meditated on the words of encouragement we wanted to send you with this gift.
We have been sending Be Fearless out as our gift since early December. We will continue to send it out with any order throughout January. In case you do not plan to order this month, here are our words of encouragement for you to be your most fearless and radiant self:
As we head into the adventure of 2020,
All of us at Green Hope Farm wanted to give you beloveds a gift.
After much contemplation, we decided to send you the gift of our Flower Essence mix Be Fearless.
We send it with hope that you know how much you are loved and in hope that this Flower Essence supports you to
Fearlessly…
Stand in your truth
Make “mistakes”
Enjoy being you
Throw out any ideas that bring you pain, especially those patriarchal ones
Be fiery and feisty
Shed any self-definition that needs to go
Throw some elbows
Do things differently
Find community that loves the fantastic person that is you
Create the boundaries you need
Let your light shine
Grieve
Begin again
See your courage, tenacity and wisdom
Take as much time as you need to find the next step on your path
Give birth to what needs to be born in your life
Believe in yourself
Change your mind
Know your heart’s deepest hopes and dreams
Love
Take charge when you need to
Lay down your burdens
Bring your shadow into the light
Stop apologizing for being you
Love your body
Move into the unknown
Let things go especially self-judgments
Trust yourself
Say what you need to say
Know you are love in a sea of love
Dance to your own music
Embrace your destiny
Be independent when you need to and seek people when you need community
Say NO
Laugh
Be happy
Love and New Year’s Blessings from all of us at Green Hope Farm!