Cribbage- No Rest for the Weary

When Jim, my husband, comes in the door at night after a day teaching math to middle school students, I want him to relish the fact that he’s about to sit down and crush me in a game of cribbage. Because it is FACT not projection that he is going to crush me.

All day he manages 68 young minds wandering in the world of mathematics with different skills, attention spans and levels of interest. AND HE DOES THIS WHILE WEARING A MASK.

Equally pressing is the complex interpersonal dynamics that he adjudicates on a minute to minute basis. Playground fights about four square, volcanic rudeness at the lunch table or during class, student cell phone mismanagement and endless negotiations about missed classes with students who have been absent because of optional hockey tournaments in Boston, Montreal even Las Vegas. As I listen to the synopsis of his day, always conveyed without names to preserve anonymity, my mind spins with an awareness that I would have no idea what to do in the majority of these situations. Nightly I appreciate the arduous profession we call teaching and his efforts to connect to his charges with humor, common sense, patience and compassion.

After his complex report in answer to my nightly question, ” How was your day?, we sit down at the kitchen table for a game of cribbage before dinner. Every single night Jim can count on me to lose our game of cribbage. After a day in the classroom, he deserves this simple pleasure of a game won fair and square. And he does win fair and square. I am not gaming the system to let him win. I might do this with my four year old grandson during a game of checkers but with Jim, I TRY TO WIN. Yes, I have a competitive streak in there, and I unleash it every night only to go down in a blaze of glory.

There are the Hail Mary moments that never go right and cards which I am sure will bring a Slam Dunk that don’t. But no matter the sports metaphors I employ or my attempt to impersonate Vince Lombardi, I lose. I have last minute stumbles, and I experience out and out skunkings when Jim beats me when I am only half way to the finish. I suck at cribbage.

I wish this brought him a bit of relaxation even gloating. He deserves to gloat. But sadly, there is no gloating. I’m not sure there is even a modicum of pleasure. It appears impossible for Jim to take off the math teacher hat long enough to enjoy his victories. As I fail to beat him on a nightly basis, I see his teacher mind whirring, “What gaps in her math skills do I need to address? How can this woman lose every single night and what do I need to do about it? How is it that a math’s teacher’s work is never done? Will it solve the problem if we find another game? Something all luck versus 2/3 luck? Gosh, let’s never send her to Vegas. If she went to Vegas what would stay in Vegas is all our money.”

A math teacher’s work is never done and I may be his toughest case.

Flower Essences for the Expansive Shift ahead in 2022

The feedback I’ve gotten from my last blog encouraged me to co-create a list of Flower Essence suggestions for the coming times with my beloved partners, the Angels and Elementals. Wow! So many Flower Essences are poised to help us with the territory ahead including Essences focused on helping us heal rifts created by differing points of view, mend fractured community and co-create new solutions to old and new problems.

The enormous group of Essences coming forward reminded me that while Nature shows us every day how we need to shift on both the macro and micro level, Nature also stands ready to help us do this in the most comprehensive way possible.  Flower Essence are but one of many available healing gifts for the territory now and ahead of us.

As the list of Flower Essences got longer and longer, I got a bit whiny with my partners. Hey guys, I noted, “Sometimes you just want to be told, “Take two aspirin and call us in the morning.” But no, the Angels and Elementals wanted a more comprehensive list, a resource list as circumstances unfold.

In any case, as we finished the list we made two decisions. I decided to break the list down into categories to make it easier to process. How clarifying this is remains to be seen. The other decision was that the Angels and Elementals asked me to note that this list is not complete and many other Flower Essences NOT listed here may call to you offering extremely timely and relevant. Basically an armada of Flower Essences want to help!

As always trust your own intuition and know that if you can’t find what you are looking for here, look at the website or our Flower Essence for Common Concerns suggestion list so the right ones can jump out at you.

OUR ENERGY SYSTEMS

The world has been constipated for at least two years, it’s time for flow: Flow Free

After a release of old traumas from the physical body, this cleans and restores our electrical field: Musk Thistle

Support to release strong energies, especially emotional ones, in benign ways: Outburst, Avocado, Lantana Involucrata, Bleeding Heart Vine

Helps us release muscle tension if we’re always bracing for next problem, also helps release of other kinds of energetic tension and rigidity: Dandelion

Helps all physical systems to discharge of residue from past suffering: The Kindness of Untangling

Strong support to keep our energetic fields clear: Golden Armor, Flee Free, Teasel, Watch Your Back

Clearing our energy field while also assisting earth and humanity: Violet Transmuting Flame Violet

Energetic renewal from spiritual fatigue: Rosa Mundi, Stanwell Perpetual Rose, Blackberry, Quatre Saisons Rose

Helps us connect with the land for refueling, energetic cleansing and comfort: The Plum Line of Energy

Bringing all the pieces of self or a situation into better alignment: The Alignment Garden

Support to cleanse and rebalance in nature and in the cleansing of silence: The Vocabulary of Cleansing

Trio to support our individual and planetary energetic metamorphosis: Path of Light trio: Clear the Path, Welcome the Light, Walk in Light

MIND SET

Helps us know everyone is doing their best: Eyes of Mary, Carouby de Maussane Pea

Confidence we can change as the times and our spiritual path requires: Mutabilis Rose

Confidence that healing will prevail: Desert Chicory, Love Prevails

Releasing anxiety about possible coming traumas, help to not project worst outcomes: Coral Pink Rose

Detachment which comes from unshakeable knowledge that all things of this world are momentary & passing: Love It and Leave It, Omey Island, Eyes of Mary

Seeing below the surface of world events to what is actually going on: Manjarin, Indian Pipe, Fava Bean

Discernment what will feed your soul: Manjarin, To Hear the Angels Sing

Discernment about what are actually gifts and what are red herrings: Manjarin, Pavonia Spinifex

Shifting from fear and panic to centered calm in extreme situations: Blood Lily, Bottle Gentian, Grounding, Red Clover

Staying grounded in divine identity when traumatic events challenge you: Osteospermum, Omey Island

Resolving doubt that our suffering could be worth what is about to be born: Maple, Star of Bethlehem

Understanding that only God defines us and we are not defined by our mistakes or difficulties: Maple

Finding inner calm: Feverfew, Arbor Garden, Indian Pipe

Knowing our value, taking a gentler view of self: Fremont Pincushion, Meadowsweet, Hardhack, Common Knapweed

Determination to follow God’s Plan with detachment from all worldly concerns or fear of loss: Chinese Knotweed

Support to make self care the cornerstone of our healing practice: The Healer’s Keystone

Moving away from despair and hopelessness to hope and confidence: Gorse, Pink Grootendorst Rose, Through Angels’ Eyes

Understanding our heritage as a child of God thus freeing us from attachment to other ideas of heritage: Heritage Rose

Release from habitual patterns of judgment: Carry Less, All Ego Contracts Null & Void, Wild Rose, Crab Apple

Support to stop running from our fears: Grounding, Clematis, All Ego Contracts Null & Void, Scarlet Runner Bean

Forgiving our most deeply held grudges against ourselves: Heliotrope, Hyssop

Removing sanskara of fear that it is dangerous not to know the answers to everything: Carry Less

Help to open our minds to new ways of thinking about things: Morning Glory, Belerephon of the Open Door

Giving up our mindset that we are not loved: Carry Less

Optimism during times of despair or tumult: Great Willowherb, Pink Grootendorst Rose

Dismantling ideas of better than, worse than: Cherokee Trail of Tears

The gift of empowerment to dismantle the whole patriarchal structure: Dittany

Showing the way to escape the snares of patriarchy and patriarchal dramas: Asphodel

Overcoming feelings of powerlessness: Queen Anne’s Lace, Broccoli, Dill

Finding and using a different consciousness than created the problem: Loving What Is, all Venus Garden Collection Essences

Dismantling erroneous idea that Divinity is not within us: Crown Daisy

Self-acceptance that you are enough: Common Knapweed

Feeling comfortable with ambiguity: Eyes of Mary

Gratitude amidst trials and tribulations: Yellow Loosestrife, Gratitude

Accessing the backstage of reality: To Hear the Angels Sing, All the Venus Garden Collection

KEEPING OUR FIRE LIT AS WE RECOVER FROM FIRESTORMS

Beginning again after firestorms: Phoenix Rising

Finding time and space to rest and restore ourselves after fiery times: Thyme from Crete

Healing and reuniting all parts of ourselves when we have been broken apart by physical and emotional violence and terror: Canna Indica

Light at dawn after the dark night of the soul: Ragged Robin

Rebirth after destructive events: Phoenix Rising, White Flower from Druid Rock

Help to birth new life when major paradigms are over: Fisterra

Transforming our battle scars into healing stories to share: Large Mediterranean Spurge

Processing our grief so we can move on with a lighter load: Grief & Loss

Awakens our flame of enlightenment, nourishes the fire of spiritual awakening: Crimson Camphor Tree

LETTING GO

Discernment and support to let go of old patterns and counter productive or fear driven behaviors even when we don’t know what our life will look like without them: Trabadelo, Sahagun, Puenta la Reina, Cats Claw, Calabash

Discernment about which situations we should stay rooted in and which situations we need to uproot ourselves from: Mandrake

Letting go of regret: Jerusalem Thorn Tree, Honeysuckle,

Letting go of self judgment about results: Effort & Grace, Love It and Leave It, Loving What Is

Clearing the heart of old hates and bitterness: Sow Thistle

Letting go of anything that needs to go: The Letting Go Flower, Flow Free

INDIVIDUATION

Freedom to express our unique Divinity, especially helpful after cultural constraints: White Mulberry

Courage to be true to ourselves: To Thine Own Self be True

Courage to be who you are when you have changed dramatically: Bay Cedar

The courage to stand apart from the crowd: To Thine Own Self be True, Alex Mackenzie Rose, Blueberry, Goldenrod, Harebell from Scotland

Finding peace with following your unique calling: Loving What Is, Don’t Worry –Bee Happy, The Alignment Garden

Knowing that being one’s true self is enough to change the world: Cretan Viper Grass

Holding our own sense of ourselves and our focus during extremely negative situations: Bottle Gentian, True Wood Sorrel

Freedom to follow our own path: Beggar’s Tick

Greater understanding of ourselves during difficult experiences: Grape, Eyes of Mary

Removing illusions that keep us from seeing ourselves clearly: Carry Less

Finding our authentic self amidst cultural pressures: Segesta

Re-integration of fragmented self: Epimedium (from Additional Essence list)

Personal sovereignty: The Sovereignty Set

Freedom from any chains binding your efforts at self actualization: Pink Catch Fly

Discernment between mind ideas of prevailing culture and our own inner knowing: Kirengeshoma

Engaging and withdrawing from others gracefully and in alignment with what is right for us: Turk’s Cap Cactus

ON THE JOURNEY

Course correction: Sage, Russian Sage (good when we need to make a change fast)

A clear sense of personal direction no matter the chaos or distractions around us: Ispahan Rose

Seeing the lay of the land clearly: The Way Forward, Eyes of Mary, Sage

Trusting the path unfolding before us: Flower from the Gardens of Taormina

Embracing the gifts of the unknown, in-between places: Flower from La Marchesa

Seeing clearly and knowing how to move forward during and after smoky, fiery times: Earth Smoke

Birthing a new life even when the situation seems anemic and unable to support this transformation: Pineapple Lily

Moving past false endings created by our culture: Santiago

Remover of obstacles: Cacao

Staying grounded amidst wildly changing circumstances or whirlwinds in our personal life: Red Mangrove, Red Rugosa Rose, Common Ragwort, Grounding

Translating inner wisdom into wise forward movement: Corn

Manifestation of our spiritual destiny and divine purpose: Canary Island Broom

Suport to pull in our new life even when it felt very far away: Inkberry

Birth of new life with discernment, clarity and feeling of safety: Nicker Nut

Removing monkey wrench of fear during change process: Mutabilis Rose, Allamanda from Taiwan

COMMUNITY

We need support to bind our wounds and the wounds suffered by communities: Wound Healing

Support to experience unity consciousness during collaborative endeavors even amongst people who don’t agree: Fendler Groundsel

Support for a meeting of the minds especially between people who push each other’s buttons: Fendler Groundsel

Forgiveness and the release and transmutation of guilt and blame: Heliotrope, Hyssop, Violet Transmuting Flame Violet

Help to not see other people’s behavior as a reflection on you: Baby Blue Eyes, Red Rugosa Rose, All Ego Contracts Null & Void, Eyes of Mary, Through Angels Eyes, Alpine Pennycress

Assisting others to heal in their own way with loving detachment about their healing decisions: Eyes of Mary, Agrippina Rose, The Wing Span of the Senses

Support to speak from a genuine place, find compromise between individual or groups who see things differently and hold our tongue if we are tempted to say something to prove we are right: Blue Penstemon

Finding a new paradigm for being together: Symphony

Strengthening interpersonal connections that have been challenged by ego-dominated forces: Wild Pea (Additional Flower Essence list)

Containing other people’s stories with compassion: Rabanal

Compassion for those on a different spiritual path than yours: Galicia

Reminding us how to relish community if it seems like too much: Rosemary

Pulling distant worlds and divided communities together: Beach Pea

Courage and willingness to enter a healing dialog: The Thread of Change

Speaking confidently even when under attack: Pink Yarrow from Cliffs of Moher

Resolving disagreements: Mary Queen of Scots Rose, The Arbor Garden

Appropriate involvement in other people’s circumstances: Thistle, All Ego Contracts Null & Void

Healing etheric/memory wounds from difficult experiences with groups of people that led to mistaken ideas of self: The Three Phacelia Sisters

Seeing where support is offered to us and clarity about what is and isn’t our responsibility: The Sunflower Spiral

Experiencing self, family of origin and community events beyond the framework of right and wrong, releasing guilt created by the illusion of good guy-bad guy dynamics: Cherokee Trail of Tears

Support when our sense of personal power is under fire and we feel on the defensive: Equanimity, Heather or Irish Heaths, Westerland Rose

Natural flow of participation in human community: Omey Island, Turk’s Cap Cactus

Finding calm when the community we are part of is overheating: Orange Lantana, Equanimity, Euphorbia of the Ancients, Chinese Rain Bell, Indian Pipe, Redwood

Help to feel connected when we do not feel connected to others: Agnes Rose, Angelica, Peach

Support to listen well to each other: Allamanda, French Marigold, Rabanal

Finding connection again when scars from previous experiences led to decisions to stay isolated: Sweet Pea

Feeling safe enough to consider other points of view: Old Blush China Rose, Joe Pye Weed

Freedom to reconfigure our personal relationships: Asclepias

Harmoniously sharing wisdom in a group: Orange Lantana

Opening to other points of view, opening to experience life without seeking constant control: Flow Free, Morning Glory

Protection from venomous attacks and negativity willfully directed at us: Rattlesnake Master

Giving up our contracts with those who don’t love us: All Ego Contracts Null and Void

Leaving behind those that don’t support us: O’Cebreiro

For finding a way past long-standing disagreements: Mary Queen of Scots Rose, Nodding Ladies’ Tresses, Box Briar

Speaking from the heart: Cosmos

Help to find a common purpose: Angelica

Self protection without defensiveness, balancing loving kindness with appropriate boundaries: Ramping Fumitory, Hairy Thorny Broom

Help for groups to find common purpose: Angelica

Support for those who bear the responsibility of holding greater light: Hesperides’ Gift, The Sunflower Spiral, Caretaker

Help not to fall into old patterns of taking on responsibilities and energetic garbage that is not ours: All Ego Contracts Null & Void, The Alignment Garden, Spiderwort, To Thine Own Self Be True, Carry Less, Family river trio of Black Currant, Bloodroot, and Borage, Loving What Is, Thistle, Watch Your Back

Seeing the purity and wholeness in each person versus buying into presenting but illusory personality: Lisianthus

Feeling others love for us:The Sunflower Spiral, Dombeya Wallichii

Respite when other people’s responses to our self-expression has been exhausting: Purple Viper’s Bugloss from Crete

Helps us create emotional space during or after conflict with others so we can sort out what we feel: Artichoke

Solving problems that have defied solution: Box Briar

Looking to shift gears

Recently I heard someone talk about Stockholm syndrome and the virus, noting that as the situation improves, we need to get ready to leave all cages including our internally created ones.   This got me considering how we have gotten used to the constraints of this time and what internal changes we will need to make to set ourselves free. How have we become our own jailers and how do we unlock ourselves?

I heard the story yesterday of someone refusing to share space with a partner even after the partner recovered from the virus and tested negative.  The long term stress of this situation made it challenging for this person to process the good news that his partner was well enough to be with him.  These are the kind of circumstances we will have to contain with gentleness as we move forward.  We have all been wounded by this experience, some of us just hide it better than others.

We will also have to find our way to forgiveness with those we have disagreed with about protocols or personal decisions.  We have all been trying to find balance in our choices in an unknown situation. This bizarre experience has pulled up fears we didn’t even know we had, and now our job is to patiently examine these fears and our reactions, welcome the gifts of self knowledge they bring us and not send them scurrying back into the dark.

May we find a way to go forward with gentleness for ourselves and others. May we see with curious not judgmental eyes.  Let us acknowledge with kindness the complex feelings and experiences that made us choose as we chose.  Let us tenderly bind our wounds together in community with each other, knowing we all did the best we could and there was no one right way to navigate all this.  Let us reflect and in this reflection harvest the gifts of this traumatic chapter.

This time has messed with us in so many ways that we’ll be unpacking it for decades.  Each generation has different losses to grieve.  For the teenagers and young adults this time was a binding of their wings at the very moment they needed to take flight.  In my time of life, it is perhaps the inward journey that beckons most, but young adults need to ramble and explore the outer world and find their place in it. Yes, I know they and every generation will receive gifts, grist for the mill, from this experience, but it must be hard to be so constrained as a young adult.

Another group that has suffered is young mothers.  For young mothers there has been a loss of flesh and blood community just as they experience one of the most physical, flesh and blood transitions of life. Gathering with other moms at the playground while their little people crash around, making mom friends during story hours at the library, wallowing in the weekly experience of toddler playgroups at each other’s homes- for young mothers there have been none of these lifelines.  Watching faked up mom and kids images on Instagram is NOT like being at the playground with your mom friends while your kid eats sand with the other toddlers.  I do not know what I would have done without mom friends at the playground.

We are animals, more like a troop of baboons than not. We groom our babies. We find comfort in sitting together while our babies play at our feet. We like to watch each other and see how the other moms are handling cradle cap or sleep exhaustion. Screen community doesn’t cut it, and not just because it is manipulated, artificial and shaming.

Three young mothers in my family had babies during the last two years of constraint.  One had two babies!  A fourth has raised two small people as a single parent during this time. I am in awe of their courage.  Motherhood is stressful in any circumstance as it involves a disorienting shift in personal identity. Keeping on keeping on with the job in isolation with only fake online reference points is my idea of heroism. I wish I could send every mom, actually everyone, a bottle of Borage Flower Essence right now to help us all keep on keeping on.

Since we’re more baboon than droid, all of us of all ages want to feel in community and feel a part of each other’s experiences and not just our own. How exhausting that going to the grocery store or sitting in a café, experiences that connected us to others in benign ways, have been situations in which risk is the operative word.  Hyper vigilance has worn us all down and left us licking our wounds in solitude.

I heard a discussion on a screen about how introverts have not fared any better during this time of constraints than extroverts.  In this same discussion, the speakers noted that self employed people had some advantages over others at the beginning of lockdown because their work habits were self imposed compared with those whose daily structures had been created by employers.  I suspect that as we go into our third year of this, the playing field has leveled out.  We’ve all had to learn how to get on with it.  For me, no books written or anything too fancy, but I still brush my teeth. I see this as a real accomplishment.

All in all, I am looking forward to the problems of Stockholm syndrome versus more of the same.  I am looking forward to hearing more fully what this has been like for others.  I am looking forward to conversations more involved than a harried and masked hello at the local Deli mart.   We’ve shared a common event, but it’s been a different experience for each of us and one we haven’t had many opportunities to share with each other. I also don’t want to be told what we’re all feeling only from third party experts. I want to hear it from actual people in the flesh.

Yesterday I got to practice my sharing skills with a teenager I ran into. I listened all ears to his description of what he had to say about his life during covid.  The mask didn’t bother him nearly as much as the ways his freedom to move about has been curtailed. At his school, student are not supposed to go outside unattended by an adult.  It feels like prison to him. I can see why. He said he finds himself sneaking outside as much as he can to defy this rule. I get it. Sometimes as the rules, dictates and “facts” change hourly, I want to rebel right alongside him. I’ve explored the well behaved, rule following aspect of myself quite enough. There ARE other aspects that need exploration.

So I’m hoping it all eases up soon.  And in the meantime, I am practicing my breakout from Stockholm syndrome skills by pursing one small act of defiance.  I am going to wear my homemade masks versus the expensive ones suddenly mandated/encouraged.  I am a little suspicious at the fact that yet another big business is going to profit by having all the masks but theirs suddenly “no good”. It reminds me a little bit too much how no other tools for healing from covid are ever discussed or encouraged in mainstream media besides the ones that make big money for big pharma.

You get my drift. I am tired of wearing masks and I am tired of the particular “good little girl” aspect of my personality that these protocols have required.  Its time for a turn.

Even when I was a child and pursuing the persona of good little girl I had more freedom.  I was expected home to wash my hands and set the table in time for dinner at 5:45, the rigid moment dinner occurred every day in our household.  No one knew or cared that I was out before this moment riding my bike with friends and getting into adventures and misadventures. I was only a good little girl part of the time.  These days I am ready for a different balance, more free spirited adventure and a little less table setting.  How about you?

In closing, I want to applaud everyone. We have all had to become heroes in unexpected ways due to unexpected challenges.  It seems important to note these challenges that have caused such grief were already causing damage before this virus.  Modern mothers were already cut off from real community in ways I was not when I began my motherhood journey forty years ago. But the last two years made this and so many other community breakdowns drastically worse and very visible.  So much at the heart of the human experience had already been pushed aside for other patriarchal goals before lockdown, Lockdown just finished their destruction.

May we go forward seeing clearly the ways we can together regrow our lives individually and collectively in ways that are life affirming and joyous.

January Flow

Whenever they can, my sons nudge my book choices towards science fiction.  The first sci-fi book they gave me was Dune.  This book hit it out of the park for me. I mean, does anyone not love Dune after the first fifty confusing pages? That was what they both warned me, that the first fifty pages were not that great but to keep going. I am so glad I did.

When the movie came out I became a big fan of Denis Villenueve.  To wrestle that complicated plot and world into a coherent movie? It astounded me. I watched the film several times, each time startled by all the details he had slipped in.  One moment I appreciated is the scene in the helicopter when Paul has a vision of a teacher from a possible future helping him in that nerve wracking dust storm.  The teacher says, “The mystery of life isn’t a problem to be solved but a reality to experience, a process that cannot be understood by stopping it.  We must move with the flow of the process.  We must join it. We must flow with it.”

In New Hampshire, January is a time of not much apparent flow.  The earth is locked in ice, a bitter wind whips down from the arctic and nights are relentlessly chilly. Yesterday on my brisk walk down our hedgerow, it was so cold that Sheba sat up like a rabbit holding out her paws to let me know it was just too cold for her.  I couldn’t think when she had bailed on a walk. If anyone uses that word “walk” in conversation, she is at the door ready to go.  Not yesterday though.  Yesterday things felt locked down even for Sheba.

Yet in the night as I considered this, I thought about all the flow that does happen in January.  Seed orders are sent and received.  Garden designs get scratched out on paper.  Projects for the coming season are tossed about. I hear whispers of new energies coming and the garden mandalas that will contain them.  All this reminds me that sometimes flow is a quieter thing, an internal thing.

What have we all learned in the last two years of contraction and diminished surface flow? What will be born from this time? What inner flow will now spring into outward expression? 

Have you noticed how many people found new talents and interests during this time? I think we are only just beginning to find out what actually flowed during the last two years of contraction. Why even the winner of the British Bake Off shared that he learned to bake during lockdown.

I’ve hardly seen anyone in what feels like forever, yet I’ve still heard many stories of people finding new ways to express themselves during this time. A friend I was texting with this morning mentioned she was just finishing the edits on a book. Holy cow!  I hadn’t realized she was even writing a book let alone just wrapping it up for a publisher! She, like so many, found flow beneath the frozen circumstances.  And it wasn’t as if her life was a piece of cake during lockdown.  She found flow while her husband was very ill and she was cut off, like the rest of us, from friends and family.  For all of us, whatever is born has not been born without pain and suffering. I doubt anyone went through this time without some experiences of loss, grief or isolation.

As we help each other heal the wounds of this time, listening to each other’s stories and sharing from the heart, I feel we will listen with more curiosity and less judgement.  Yes, the media makes us believe that judgment is our main activity and repeats that party line as the one and only story. Yet for me, whenever I have been lucky enough to talk to anyone during this time be it a grocery store clerk, a man delivering a load of firewood, the GHF staff goddesses or the librarians holding the fort at our town library, I have found open hearted sharing. I don’t really care so much about dividing us all into categories after all this and I certainly don’t experience others as caring either.  It’s like we know in the actual moment of connection that any kind of sharing is what we need to heal.  My belief is that even as we were slowed down or even stopped in external action during this time, the inner flow of love and creativity has risen in counterbalance. 

I look forward to all that will come to light now.  I look forward to reconnecting and discovering what unique creations were born within each of us. I look forward to see all the love alive and well and ready to blossom in each heart.

Yes, January can seem like a promise of eternal lockdown for all of us.  But seeds promise a different story of new beginnings, new life, spring. And the seeds of love in our hearts have already begun to geminate.