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Tune Up ’21- a New Mix for You!

Hello dear friends!

I love May! Beautiful zesty, lush, green, beflowered, expansive May!

Today is May 5th   It’s rainy and gray with the gardens drinking in every last raindrop with palpable delight. Even as Flowers keep their heads down in the downpour, the gardens look poised to soar into wonder and magic the moment the sun returns. Everything sings, “Yahooooo!”

Amidst this magic clamor of new life, the Angels and Elementals nudged me to make a new mix! Last night it was ready. Today it’s on the shelves available to go off to you……and what a dynamo!

Noting that this has been a confusing and disorganizing time for one and all, the Angels and Elementals created this mix to help us re-align all our systems. In addition to support for re-alignment, they said this mix was to help reorganize any system currently in knots or going in disharmonious directions. Additionally it is to help re-invigorate and restore optimum vibrational harmony by both moving out of our electrical fields whatever needs to go and grounding higher healing vibrations.  

The Angels and Elementals explained that no matter the physical, emotional, mental or spiritual challenges we face right now, this mix will help us find our most harmonious, empowered, clear, aligned and balanced self. 

To sum up, the Angels and Elementals are undaunted by this time’s challenges and with complete confidence offer a remedy that will bring light into even the most complex situation.

These are big confident statements, but as you will see from the ingredient list below, the confidence is more than backed up by the Flower Essences composing this mix.   The energy of the mix is a very big  WOW! This one is like Flower Essence Drano capable of handling ANY clog in the system! And it’s not destructive but constructive a.k.a. less is more. We empty out to see the Light we always were. I felt more whole just mixing it up!

The Angels gave the mix the name Tune Up ’21.

They encouraged me to clarify that this mix is for EVERYONE, regardless of what has happened to you in the last few years.  If there are some members of your household that have suffered more than others, it will help them if everyone uses the mix as it’s easier to rise up together than separately.

Spritzing the mix is a brilliant way to share the wealth. My household sees me coming at them night and day with the various spritz bottles! 

The first person I handed a bottle of tune Up ‘21 to felt full body shivers for several minutes. Then….. what a smile! May you too feel the love!

Here are the ingredients given in the order received with insight provided by Angels and Elementals.

Sunflower– YOU ARE SUPER HEROES! YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. Let us show you the pattern of your perfection.

Pine– Cooling respite beyond battle. We hold you.

Birch– We peel back and remove what needs to be removed. We do so with calm so you can remain in calm. We get to the bottom of things with you. (Additional Flower Essence list page 46)

Meadowsweet– YOU ARE LOVED. We bath you in sweet love. We soothe overfiring circuitry. We help you rest in love.

St John’s Wort– We are the very best fire fighters.  We help you keep the sunshine and shed the burn.

Cardinal Flower– We help you in the seriousness of your healing intention. We uplift you in your dedication and focus. We help you release energies that mislead. No more hair shirts.

Yellow Mullein– YES YOU CAN DO IT. Stand in this knowing without fear. You can and will do it.

Oregano– If it doesn’t belong within you, it’s got to go. Only true self and source. We help you clean house. (Additional Flower Essence list page 23)

Raspberry– Total harmony. Aligned with Divine energy, only light exists. (Additional Flower Essence list page 25)

Tansy– We blast away any misplaced energy no matter how long it’s been clinging to you. We support your freedom and sanctity. (Additional Flower Essence list page 28)

Lion’s Ear– Wise elders gather with this Essence to give you bespoke healing support. A gift beyond measure.

Yerba Mate– We re- map cell patterns after illness or challenge. We bring immense protective energy.

Corn– The deep perfection of energy organized by Light.  This downloading is the wisdom of the ancients. It takes you forward in community of unity consciousness.

Osteospermum– If betrayal has been a part of your journey, we help you experience your wholeness on the other side.

Willow– The immense gift of flexibility makes all things possible. (Additional Flower Essence list page 30)

Purple Queen Snap Bean– Harmonious shifts. Dissolving the impediments of self judgement. (Additional Flower Essence list page 30)

All our Marigolds including French Marigold– As masters of love, gratitude and harmonious mutation, we take you across the threshold to spiritual freedom and liberation.

Fragrant Ladies Tresses– We help you let go and let grace prevail.

Angelica– Indivisibility with the Divine. Spiritual freedom. Wound healing. Never underestimate how many Angels love you.

Borage– Happiness is yours for the taking.

Mehera– Because the destination is the source.

Jade– It’s a wild woolly ride but green energy is with you and that makes all the difference.

Last thoughts from the Angels and Elementals? “Let us help you! And remember, our shared Divinity has this! It’s going to be okay.”

Go Day?

When musing with another gardener a few years ago, this gardener mentioned his concept of “Go Day,” that spring day when suddenly the afterburners get ignited in the garden and it is time for us gardeners to well….go Go GO!

At that time, it seemed an apt description for how our seasons turn abruptly from wintry conditions to full tilt spring and in response, there is suddenly a list a mile long of urgent jobs to do in the gardens.

Lately however, it is hard to figure out which day is “Go Day.” Already this spring we have had some excellent candidates for “Go Day.” On these glorious mornings when I thought it was Go Day, I joyfully plunged my hands in the dirt to plant early crops like peas and beets. I approached the removal of the Rose suckers with enthusiasm, maybe too much as I then had an evening of pulling tiny rose thorns from my fingers. But still it was bliss.

However, these early Go Day candidates fell short of the mark. Instead of heralding warmer days, each of these 70 degree humdingers were followed by a string of glowering days of bitter cold punctuated by snowstorms.

Which brings us to our storm on Thursday night which dumped a good five inches of heavy snow on the farm.

the beginning of the storm

An old timer I ran into ( this person being almost a peer of mine as I have now been here 40 plus years myself), said, “Well this IS Northern New England after all, and this is just the way spring is.” I admired his philosophical point of view. However I haven’t changed all that much since my blog last week about my lack of patience in the garden. So for me, I went from savoring the weeding to resentfully watching snow fall. And now lingering cold has left me wistfully indoors looking at the five inches of snow on the ground that has stuck around for four days instead of agreeably melting right away as most spring snow does.

I’ve tried to go with this flow and do inside spring chores like tucking away winter clothes. Only, I still need the sweaters. Even the heavy ones.

So here I sit, wearing my favorite Irish sweater AND a winter coat while feeding the wood stove. There is nothing quite like filling the woodbox in April. Bikes and other accoutrements of spring block the way to the woodpile and I trip and crash, clutching what I keep hoping is my last load of logs to haul into the house for the season.

As I crash dash to and fro the woodpile, I try not to look to the Arbor Garden. I don’t really want to see the fate of the Daffodils. I am certain the glory of last weeks’ display is toast. When the snow does melt, I hope I will be able to pick bunches of broken Daffodils to fill the office with spring cheer. But who knows? This snow has smushed everything for a long time.

Shrubs and trees encircling the Arbor Garden and all our perennial beds were budded out. Some even had young leaves. This means many limbs are drooping from snow caught in the young foliage. This kind of storm often means we have to cut back shrubs because they don’t pop back into their vertical positions again. Nothing like starting the season by butchering the Flowering shrubs.

Okay, I had to go get more wood so I took a gander at the damage. It’s still a little early to tell but the fate of the Daffodils looks bleak. Other plants like the Hellebores, also known as Winter Rose, seem like they may well rise up and resuming their business of blooming. Time will tell.

I can also hear the drip of melting snow so perhaps in a day or two I will be out there again in a snowless garden tackling things like the crab grass. It would be great if I loved crab grass because nothing stops its roll. Not snow or ice or cold. But I prefer Flowers. That’s my story and I am sticking to it. Loving Flowers means more tears than loving crab grass, but it means more joy too. The Daffodils and I still have the beauty of last week before the agony of the storm. I hope they feel it was worth it. I do.

Helping our Inner Child in these times

I know the dust hasn’t settled yet.  Astrologer Pam Gregory describes life on Earth right now as living in a demolition zone. So yes, maybe clarity is not available yet as the air is still full of demolition dust.  However, some things I believed were true feel incredibly MORE true after this last year.  One belief underscored and highlighted for me is that we need each other.

Another thing I have certainly noticed is that issues I thought were done and dusted have come up again for another round of healing. Today I thought I would specifically write about Inner Child work.  We brought our Inner Child combination Flower Essence out decades ago. I worked with this Essence a lot then and did much healing around the experiences of my inner child in her challenging childhood.  This year with so many things going in different directions than planned and with so much change, little Molly has been in need of a lot of love, reassurance and Inner Child too.

While I have worked to make peace with what I went through as a child, this doesn’t mean that little Molly within me isn’t still affected by what happened.  She still has a strong tendency to drive current situations from the framework of childhood events.  She needs my grownup perspective and the reminder, among other things, that no matter what is going on, she is safe and won’t be abandoned. 

Abandonment is a big issue with my inner child for a number of reasons. One reason is that when I was four, my little sister who was mentally challenged disappeared from our home forever to rarely be mentioned again.  While to the adults this was no doubt a heart wrenching decision in an era when people thought it best to do this and then not talk about it ever again, to me it was a terrifying existential threat that if I wasn’t perfectly behaved I too would be sent away forever.

To prevent being sent away, I took on the roles in my family of origin of cheerleader, ever present sunshine, hardest worker ever, model student, and an overall well behaved, cheerful and polite child who was never a bother to anyone.  I tried to take care of everything by myself.  If you’ve been reading this blog for a long time, you may remember that when I broke my left arm as an adult, the first thing the orthopedic surgeon said to me was that I had broken this arm as a child, and it had not been set.  Little Molly had “taken care” of a broken arm all by herself.

I am spending more time thanking little Molly for how her efforts in childhood and throughout my life have made such a difference.  I don’t think I would have survived my childhood without her indomitable spirit.  Little Molly was also key to creating Green Hope Farm and everything we’ve done here. She hauled six thousand loads of compost and made over a thousand Flower Essences for us.  She got us out in the world to share what we we’re doing here.  She can and did move mountains.

This pandemic year has no doubt been stressful to all our inner children. Nothing like being in an out of control situation to remind us of when we were children with little control over our daily life circumstances. When I found myself without staff for a number of months, little Molly kicked into high gear and got all the work done. Just like she always had. When I needed to work from dawn ’til way past dusk, she kept going.  She was heroic but also trapped within the rules of engagement from a childhood in which she had no choice but do it all by herself. While adult Molly is aware of the constant support of Divinity, little Molly remembers a childhood in which the stand ins for Divinity ie my parents were either not there or there in a negative way. Stress can trigger adult Molly into going back into little Molly patterns of feeling abandoned to do it all alone. 

Among other things this year has been about helping a more integrated self let go more deeply of this, “I have to do everything all by myself” mindset. Together we have let go of many of the roles that little Molly thought we had to fill. By necessity, little Molly had no sense of balance and now I, adult Molly, am working to help her have that.  It’s time for more rest and play.

So how did this need for a better balance of work and play become so clear?  Last summer as I struggled to fill the shoes of many missing staff Goddesses, I got very sick with a kidney infection.  As the months flowed on, and the infection lingered, I found myself needing more staff than ever.  We were busier than ever, and I just couldn’t keep the pace of old.  Mercifully events (no doubt orchestrated by Divinity) conspired to help me let go of the roles I had played in the daily operations of the office for three decades.

For example, wonderful summer staff Goddess Anna, a college student on break, found herself spending her sophomore year in college in our office instead of at school. With Anna there and the return of our other staff as childcare and schooling got sorted out, I was needed less in the office.

Another part of it was that even with masks on, we couldn’t socially distance with me in the office along with all the other returning staff. At first this meant I did my jobs at night or on the weekends but then the amazing staff Goddesses, Vicki, Jen, Sam, Anna and Lizzie stepped up more and more, and I began to let go of this night work. 

Slowly with lurches and stumbles I let go of what my role had been for so long and went into a place that felt like a bit of a void to little Molly.  How was she safe if she wasn’t working 24/7?  To adult Molly it felt right to let go of daily operations and focus on the gardens and making the Flower Essences as my work.  In fact, I began to wonder more and more how on earth I had done all that I had been doing because the gardens and the Essences filled my days. Then I would remember, “Oh right, little Molly did it.”

This shift felt really good to adult me.  I felt great excitement as the younger generations here began to express their visions and insights into how to do things and where to go next.  Our first collaborative project within this new framework was the Path of Light trio which was a wonderful co-creation coming out of what the younger generation saw as what you all were asking for linked into how the Angels and Elementals here wanted to answer that request. 

Little Molly was more in a panic.  Was this safe? Was she doing enough? What was she if she let go of the work habits of 60 years? The Angels would talk to little Molly all day reassuring her and helping her let go.  As you may recall, I broke both my arms into dozens of pieces when I needed to let go of my family of origin so letting go of my baby GHF in the way I had always held her was very big for little Molly and for big Molly too.

This is where other people came in.  The staff Goddesses have been so loving about my letting go process.  We’ve laughed as well as cried which is saying something during a pandemic!  Additionally, I looked to a wise healer I have worked with at pivotal times over the years, and she was so helpful to me.  It’s been so deeply healing to let go and get her healing help and her wise perspective on the process I am going through.  Among a lot of other things, she was the one who called me back to working with little Molly through this transition. This has helped little Molly to feel safe, loved and appreciated. Little Molly has begun to know it is enough to just enjoy life with adult Molly.

I asked this healer, Kathy Skolem for permission to mention her here.  I also asked her for a description of her work and this is what she said.

“Kathy is an intuitive whose knowledge of anatomy and physiology and a deep understanding of the body mind connection offers a foundational approach to the many facets of healing. With 29 years in practice and her studies, Kathy brings her skills as a sensitive together with science. She is a facilitator and a teacher, empowering her clients to grow from those life experiences that have taken away their joy, inner peace, and their sense of well being, offering the opportunity for them to bring balance and flow back into their lives. 

Kathy has worked in the field of energy studies for 29 years. She is a certified Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapist, Somatic Experiencing Practitioner, an APP Polarity Therapist, has taken an apprenticeship class in Plant Spirit Healing with Pam Montgomery, is a graduate of the Robert T Jaffe School of Energy Mastery, and served as an assistant staff member at the School of Conscious Healing in Sedona, Arizona. She has taught classes in the mind/body connection and creative visualization She has continued her studies with the online courses in neurobiology from the National Institute for the Clinical Application of Behavioral Medicine. Her educational journey started with a Reiki and a national certification in massage therapy.”

These are the things I would like to add.  I’ve worked with Kathy for 25 years.  She was an amazing healer from the first. All she has studied since then has deepened her gifts.  She loves Flower Essences and also has a deep connection with plant medicine. She worked at the farm in the early years and was key to the co-creation of the incomparable Alignment Garden Essence.  She has so much fairy energy and really gets me laughing. She works with animals as well as people and has extensive experience with horses.  I have had some very memorable healing sessions with her that helped me incredibly.  The work we have done lately has been layered with work on healing my physical vehicle from what it has been through of late and also this key work of setting little Molly free to know it is enough for her to just be with me.  Kathy does great work on the phone. Call her at 802-356-2262  for a phone session.

The Stop and Start of Spring (and these Times)

Spring comes slowly here. Days of spitting snow flurries and chill winds predominate. This makes the moments of sun and warm feel very precious. My heart sings when the pussy willows arrive or an early spring Flower rises up through nearly frozen ground.

The stop and start quality of Spring serves me, much as I don’t like it. When we have a rare string of moderate Spring days, I get a little carried away, wanting to pull up every last clump of crab grass in acres of flower beds. I act as if all garden tasks must be addressed on the first day the earth is thawed. Fortunately the fluctuations in the weather mean I can usually do only a bit of weeding then I must wait for another thaw (and rest, which is usually always needed).

I can’t prune all the fruit trees at once either because, most days it’s bitter cold up in the their branches. Arctic wind on the ground only feels worse when ten feet off the ground. I must prune one tree at a time when the conditions are kind and I can hold the clippers without my mittened hands freezing. This slow pace is fine for the trees. It’s just me that is impatient. Right now I have one tree left, a Paula Red apple down where the new beehives settled in last summer. The tree is perfectly content to wait for the next warmish moment.

If I lived in Bermuda perhaps it would be the heat of summer that would stop my garden roll and get me to rest. Here it is the extremes of weather that are my built in braking system. Like today. I went out and weeded the asparagus then sifted a load of compost then put a fresh layer of this lovely rich soil on the whole bed. A stiff wind encouraged me to conclude that was enough.

This year of constraint has been like a northern new England Spring. My tendency to push has been reined in. What I would really like right now is the freedom to do A LOT of everything I want to do in a sea of possibilities. I guess we all want that. But life has other plans for us right now. I don’t know why, and I don’t know for how long. But like northern New England Springs, I am trying to accept the tempo of this time and enjoy the windows of sunlight and warmth. In other words, I’m trying to be more patient, more able to go with the flow, less likely to push the river.

Some days go better than others! How about for you?

Energetic Housecleaning

A dear one going through great travail spoke to me of her hopelessness and helplessness in the face of heavy hits that keep on coming. A list of what she has dealt with in the last year reads like the book of Job. With her signature honesty she noted that she feels so bereft that she doesn’t ask for Divine help anymore: this dark passage has made it hard for her to feel help is there.

Events continue to take a blow torch to my sense that I know what anyone should do in any situation. If I see things one way, something immediately happens to have me see it the opposite way. With this beloved, I didn’t know what I would do if faced with the extremity of her situation, and I certainly didn’t know if I would feel the presence of Divinity in her circumstance. Yet……after a bit, I encouraged her to ask for Divine help whether she believes it is there or not.

After I spoke, I felt perhaps it had been wrong to pony up this suggestion. I don’t know what it’s like to walk in her shoes, and I certainly understand why she would neither feel the pulse of Divinity or have any interest in looking for it.

After we ended our conversation, I stumbled on this Hafiz line.

“It is not known where the real abode of the Divine Beloved is, only this much is clear, I hear the sound of bells from the traveling caravans.”

This reminded me I’m grateful when others share encouragement and their experience of Divinity. These are “the sound of bells from the traveling caravans.” They keep me going and lift me up when I flounder. So maybe it is okay when I ring the bells on my camel.

Which leads me to explain why I rang this bell for this beloved and why I ring it for you so frequently on the topic of asking for Divine help. Perhaps this is a bell that you do not need to hear. Perhaps it will support you. In either case, I salute you on this shared journey. I hope your camel is not too grumpy and that your ride is not too bumpy.

But back to the topic of asking for Divine help. Young children’s energy systems are dialed in to the vibrational changes occurring on the planet. The children are equipped to make the vibrational leap with less bother than us older folks. They have come in with energetic circuit boards that work for the incoming energies. This gives them an ability to assimilate this energy with relative ease. This ease stands in contrast to the work required for us older folk to adapt our energy systems to the incoming light and the new earth grid of light energy.

For us older folks, this shift is a project. Not a crushing one, but nonetheless an arduous one. The grace in our collective situation is that Divinity is not asking us to do it alone. We receive constant support.

So if everyone needs help and everyone is getting Divine help, why does it improve things to ask Divinity and a team of Divine helpers for detailed help? When we ask for specific help, the help can be more specific.

These Divine helpers see our energy system clearly and know what each of us need to make the leap, but they can’t know exactly how the shift is playing itself out in our bodies. A trainer knows how to get us in shape for a marathon, but us explaining how each step of the training is going vastly improves the training strategy and our progress. So it is with this vibrational shift.

In previous blogs (including one on May 10th, 2020 called Welcoming the Light- Possible ways to Proceed and Flower Essences to Help and also one on March 4th, 2021 called Path of Light Trio) I described a specific way I ask for help. In brief, I call in Divinity and the Angels, Elementals and Ascended Masters that I work with. I welcome those helping me that I do not know. Then I ask for help to release from my mental, emotional, etheric and physical body what I need to release. I ask for help to welcome the higher vibrations into my energy system, knowing the release has made room for more light. Then I sit or lie still for about an hour.

While this process once seemed like an optional tool to use whenever I remembered it, I now use it daily. Decades ago we had latitude about our time frame for spiritual growth and the pace of our spiritual shift to light bodies. Now we must give our undivided attention to this energetic work. Our planet is on the move and so must we be.

To support this process, I’m also using the Path of Light trio. I’ve mixed the trio into one bottle, and when I begin and finish this energy session, I spritz the mix over and around myself.

The first in the trio, Clear the Path specifically helps us with the vital work of dumping lower vibrations that are no longer compatible with the rising frequency of the planet. These heavy vibrations need to be released if we are going to be able to stay in sync with our planet’s rising vibration.

I ask outloud to deepen the clarity of my requests. Recently I read about a spiritual seeker who was also chief counsel for a multinational company. When pressed with a major problem that he did not know how to resolve, he would crawl under his desk during meetings to ask Divinity for help outloud. This is how important he felt asking outloud was.

I also try to be very detailed. Yes, our cries of, “Help me!” will be answered, but in this conversation with spirit, all the clarity we bring means much more focused and effective support. I also include a request to release what my Divine helpers know I need to release. This way I also receive the support they know I need from their overview of me and my situation.

The process to clear the path takes on unexpected twists and turns. I look to events in my daily life, especially the ones tripping me up, to see what I need to release in order to make way for higher vibrations. I have begun to think everything needs to go but my connection to Divinity. I hold onto this much as a child holds onto its mother’s skirt.

Topics for release crop up like gophers. So many gophers! As issues surface, they seem obvious in retrospect but I don’t see them coming. All these shifts may be necessary but they are disorienting. Time is strange and things we once enjoyed feel alien and uncomfortable. I’m finding myself a bit unsteady on my feet, like a toddler learning to walk after mastering the art of the crawl. I don’t want to go back to crawling but the upright thing feels surreal.

Here’s a little example. I have always thought of myself as fairly adept at the social ramble. My family of origin stressed what I think of as “cocktail party manners,” and I was good at them. This past weekend about a dozen people converged at the crossroads in front of the farm. As I caught up with all these neighbors I found myself completely overwhelmed by this “crowd.” I fumbled my way through the many conversations that sprang up, aware that a comfortable crowd for me has become me and my dog. Was this all a result of covid isolation or have I become an introvert? I don’t really know. This caravan journey is so very dusty. No wonder we need bells ringing!

This dust swirling within and without informs what we ask to release next. In this case I needed to surrender my sense of myself as socially skilled and any rising shame that this isn’t me right now. In this time of metamorphosis all we can do is surrender to what is then surrender again and again all with the support of the vast group of spiritual guides here to help us do it.

These guides are like a crew of expert climbers taking us up El Capitan for the first time. I don’t know about you, but I am going to ask them for their advice then take it. I am going to be specific about what I don’t understand about the climb and how it is affecting me and I am also going to integrate their guidance as much as possible. As I mentioned previously, one piece of advice I get daily is to drink more water. This cleanse process is moving lifetimes of low vibrations out of our mental emotional, physical and etheric bodies and hydration makes the release vastly easier on our systems.

As our release makes energetic space within us, spirit will also help us Welcome the Light. We are not separate from this incoming light but our many illusions of separation clog the flow of this light. As we release, this Flower Essence and the team of Divine support help us let our light predominate in our energy systems.

We are toddlers in our new light bodies on our new earth so Walk in Light helps us steady ourselves as we keep going.

In my toddler state, in any state really, bells ringing across the caravan really help me, so I thank you for all your love.